It sucks dicks

Every time I hug you....
Kiss you...
Even just think about you...
It's a twisting blade through my chest.
But I love you so much....
That I dwell in that pain.
I pull you nearer...
Ignoring this unbearable...
Mind numbing...
Torture.
Just so I can be with you....
If only for a second.

When you are gone.
My body aches for that hurt.
Because of this fucked up desire for you.
It craves your smell...
So much so that your scent lingers
In my nostrils...
Or maybe just in my mind...
Long after you're gone.
I hear your voice when you're not around.
The mere mention of your name
Makes me warm inside.
And it sucks dicks.

I want to give you everything.
All of me.
Entirely.
But it's not enough.
And that's what hurts the most.
Because I just wish I were.