FTS

Fuck this shit.

When I look inside myself.
Unsure of what goes where.
Ignoring the desires that I have.
In order to help others persevere.
I find that it eats at my soul...
Piece by piece...
The good within me...
Once whole and solid.
Is crumbling and slipping from my grasp.
So I'm saying...
Fuck this shit.

I realize that I have my faults,
But I know I'm worth the risk.
So,
You can straddle your safe bets.
While I say fuck this shit.
I'm done wasting my time.
Eagerly waiting for good news...
Only to be bombarded by disappointment
And to be tormented by....
"Not quite the right time"
"I'm just living the single life"
And blatant rejection that stings like a bitch.
My ego is allergic to failure.
Good thing my mind is like an epipen.
Healing the allergic reaction...
With a healthy dose of
Fuck this shit.