Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Addicted

I tell you good morning...
text you throughout the day
And goodnight in the evening...
The drafts are filling my inbox.
I type it to feel normal.
But we're far beyond our normal.
I sometimes just want to talk
to someone who really knows me.
No false perceptions
Of who I'm meant to be.
Just me.
But I know you won't answer.

When you last said goodbye...
The ground shook and cracked.
My heart fell into it,
And was swallowed whole
By a bottomless pit.
The many mistakes we've made
Can't be taken back.
So we go through withdrawal.
To get rid of the toxins...
But not until now did I realize...
Just how addicted to your love I had become.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Taming the beast

The past and all its memories
Sometimes spring in and frequent my dreams.
The person I once was is a ghost..
That haunts the person I try to be.
The mistakes that I've made,
I can never eschew.
When things are going well...
The past moves in to take it's cue.
It comes to remind me
That though I'm renewed...
Forgetting what you've done
Breaks the cardinal rule...
Then just that quickly... It dissipates,
And my former confidence is subdued.